Almost immediately following my miscarriage, I knew I wanted to buy some sort of special pendant to remember my baby and carry him with me. The one that called to me was the “baby in my heart” pendant from Miscarriage Memories and even though it is expensive, I bought it and wear it all the time.
However, I also kept thinking “I am going to have footprints on my heart forever” and I wanted a footprints charm for my husband to put on his keychain. After a LOT of searching, I found just what I wanted on etsy. I bought one for my mom and dad each as well and the one for myself I included as part of Noah’s necklace.
Ever the bargain hunter even in grief, they are so, so much cheaper from etsy than from various grief/loss websites, which I felt like were exploiting people by selling similar pendants for $40. (And, yes, the “baby in my heart” pendant was $40, but I felt differently about it because the pendant was based on the woman’s own 14 week ultrasound picture and she designed it herself, etc. And, I also felt “justified” in getting it because that is just how I feel, like my baby will always be in my heart—plus, since my Noah died at 14 weeks, it seemed perfect for me. Sometimes she has the pewter version on ebay for around $11). But, the footprints on the heart are meaningful to me as well because I feel like any lost baby, however small, leaves footprints on its mother’s heart forever.
Very strangely, as I was actually writing this post, I got an email-newsletter from Family Tree Glass (love them!) and their newest pendant is this:
What an odd coincidence!