Books About Miscarriage

I already had quite a few books about miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss on my shelf prior to my own miscarriage (some from my CBE training and some from when I worked at the Ronald McDonald House). I read them all in the days following my own miscarriage and have since ordered and read many more. I wanted to share the list here in case it will help anyone else:

After Miscarriage: Medical Facts and Emotional Support for Pregnancy Loss–this was one of the best books I bought. It was lighter on the emotional side than many of the others. This isn’t necessarily good in and of itself, but it was what I needed to read after reading about 6 books with an emphasis on the emotional side and almost no exploration of the physical side (my observation of most books on this subject). Plus, this book was published in 2008, so it is fairly up-to-date and so I trusted the information in it about miscarriage causes more than I did the info in the 90’s books I have. I also liked that the sole focus is on miscarriage.

Empty Arms: Coping with miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant death-one of the things I found interesting in this one was the question, “Are miscarriage and stillbirth really all that different? Is stillbirth more painful because the baby was carried longer?…’What is miscarriage, but an early stillbirth?'” This is how I felt about my own experience—like it was an early stillbirth. Perhaps if there had been no baby to see and touch and relate to, I would separate the two more readily??

Help, Comfort, & Hope after Losing Your Baby in Pregnancy or the First Year—this one is one of the best for sure. It is from 1997, but because it doesn’t address medical issues, it is completely relevant. This is one that I had my shelf since my time at RMHC and I’m glad I had it, it was very helpful and I really recommend it. It covers a lot of ground, because it includes infant loss throughout the first year of life. It has helpful sections for family members, friends, and professionals. Highly recommended!

Mourning Sickness: Stories and poems about miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss—a more creative, exploratory, personal look at the experience. I marked one quote in which the woman says (referring to being at the hospital): “This is no place to have any real feelings or to let myself wonder why this is happening.” That is exactly how I felt at the doctor’s office when we found out Noah died. I felt like they were expecting me to cry or something, but what I felt was, “get me out of here and THEN I’ll let myself feel.” I even said that to the nurse-practitioner we’d seen—“I’ve got to process this later.”

Miscarriage: Women Sharing from the Heart—I got a lot out of this one emotionally. After Miscarriage was my favorite for medical information and this one was one of my favorites for the emotional side as well as for exploring grief and transformation.

Surviving Pregnancy Loss: a Complete Sourcebook for Women and Their Families—on the older side, didn’t get much out of it.

Unspeakable Losses: Healing from Miscarriage, Abortion, and Other Pregnancy Loss—something I marked from this one was “And before my own losses taught me differently, I had always assumed that once they were over, there was nothing more to say about this unseen losses.” Of course, there IS lots more to say. Hence, this blog. Another quote I marked from this book is: “As a culture, we seem to have an intolerance for suffering; we tend to want those who have experienced a loss of any kind to get on with their lives as quickly as possible. Often, by minimizing the impact of significant losses pathologizing those whose reactions are intense, and applauding those who seem relatively unaffected by tragic events, we encourage the inhibition of our grief. In both obvious and subtle ways, we tell those who grieve they are wrong to be so upset, to dwell on their miseries.”

Coping with a Miscarriage: Why it happens and how to deal with its impact on your family—I do not recommend this one. It is on the older side and it persists in referring to miscarriage as “spontaneous abortion” or even just “abortion.” I hate that. It drives me crazy and makes me mad. I know that SA is the technical, medical term for miscarriage, but I refuse to “own” the term. I have a hard enough time with “miscarriage” being enough. SA just feels like a slap in the face as well as just wrong. Like many medical terms for things affecting women, it is insulting in a way—like “incompetent” cervix or “irritable” uterus…

Pregnancy After a Loss: A Guide to Pregnancy after a Miscarriage, Stillbirth or Infant Death—I coincidentally had this one on my to-sell shelf for Amazon. I unlisted it and read it myself—at the time, I wasn’t ready to consider the possibility of trying again, so I probably need to re-read it.

Ended Beginnings: Healing Childbearing Losses—this is one I had on hand from my CBE training. It is good. Again, on the old side, but pretty much exclusively emotional, so it doesn’t really matter—it doesn’t feel “dated.”

Presenting Unexpected Outcomes–another one from my CBE training. Same other as Empty Arms above. It is helpful as an educator, but wasn’t particularly useful as a woman.

Empty Cradle, Broken Heart: Surviving the Death of Your Baby—another one focusing on emotional recovery.

For my kids, I bought the children’s book Something Happened. My older son (6) was reluctant to have me read it to him, but when I did, he kept nodding and saying things like “yeah.” It was an interesting experience. I’ve only read it to them once.

I also have two more that recently came from Bookins and I haven’t read them yet:

Coming to Term: Uncovering the Truth About Miscarriage—this one is written by a man whose wife had three miscarriages. He is a health writer and investigative journalist.

Miscarriage: Women’s Experiences & Needs—I don’t know anything about this one.

Maybe this seems like a lot or “too much” reading, but I have found it very helpful. Reading is what I do! So, having this experience is no different for me—I read in order to make sense of my own feelings and experiences. I also have found it helpful to paticipate in the Pregnancy and Birth Loss form at mothering.com. Though is is also scary in a way—there is SO MUCH PAIN carried in the world surrounding childbearing loss. It is staggering what so many women and families have gone through. My innocence is definitely lost and reading about other women’s experiences makes me worried about doing this over and over again (or having subsequent even more emotionally painful losses).

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4 responses to “Books About Miscarriage

  1. Pingback: Books About Miscarriage « Talk Birth

  2. I am very sorry to hear of your loss. I just wanna say GO YOU on the reading! 🙂 I’m the same way. Reading gives us the knowledge we need to grow through something and you should be proud of how amazing you are through this hard time.

    I understand the fear of trying again. Like you said, so many women go through this again and again… what if I’m one of them and just don’t know it yet? It’s terrifying, but more heartbreaking, to think I might have to survive another miscarriage. Or more than just two? UGH! Just the thought is… well, total darkness. With a big ole thud! 😉

    I definitely don’t have all of the answers, which is frustrating to me, which is why I continue to read and educate myself; each of us, as individual women, have to find our own answers. So as a stranger, I’m proud of you – and excited for you – to be learning and growing through one of the hardest things I think a woman can experience. Remind yourself each day how amazing you are. And keep reading! haha. Keep smiling. Keep laughing. And stay hopeful! The truth is, we just never know what is going to come our way. We always have to work with what we got, and hope for the best!

    Best wishes! 🙂

  3. I wanted to share with you the BEST resource I have about pregnancy loss. It is called A Silent Sorrow by Kohn and I recommend it as the most healing book and the most informative, as helpful to me as the Big Book of Birth by Erica Lyon.

    I realized that it has been two and a half years since my first miscarriage and that that daughter would be 2 in Feburary. Its really hard to consider this… even now. I agree that I have transformed as a woman as transformed as how I view birth.

    I welcomed having very frequent appointments at a maternal/fetal specialist, even though my friends thought these things were invasive… it was just proof to me that at least during the appointment, my baby was alive and healthy. I did not get to have an un-medically birth – I had membranes stripped, Cytotec, and an hour of pitocin, along with IV pain meds and fetal scalp probe. It wasnt’ my ideal birth plan, but my baby did need medical attention due to a cord issue and some anti-narcotic meds and I am so relieved that I did not give birth at home or a local birthing center.

    I feel judged by some midwives about my birth experience, so I really appreicate your post on Jan 26 about how your perspectives have changed!

    • Thank you for the suggestion! That one is on my wish list at Amazon (apparently no one felt like getting it for me for Christmas though, LOL!) and I just noticed it today and thought about buying it (it is like 87 cents used), but then didn’t. I think I will go back and get it.

      Though in my past I have been semi-opposed to doppler use during pregnancy, I know that when I have another baby, I will want to listen for the heartbeat as soon as possible. We never heard Noah’s heartbeat, though he obviously would have had one, and I would like to have had that memory (especially for my husband). I also think I will want to have an ultrasound, as well as several other “interventions” that I would have been critical of before. This experience has really deepened (and matured) me in a variety of ways. While I had compassion before and was much less judgmental than many people, I feel like I’ve moved into a new level.

      Thanks for your comments. I appreciate them.

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